I’ve never been a PROTESTOR!

Let me start with a disclaimer concerning my title. All my life, I have never joined any picket line, marched waving a sign for some right I think is being violated, or anything else that would cause me to join a public mob. I’m just not that kind of person.

Maybe if you are a “cause fighter,” you would accuse me of letting others do all the fighting. Maybe you would be right. But you would be asking me to do something that I am not personally wired to do. I believe people who hit the streets moments after and continue to camp out have what I call “an in-your-face personality.” To explain myself one more way, if I got pulled over when I drove, instantly, when that police officer walked up to my door: They represent authority to me!

These people who won’t roll down their windows and instantly start shouting their rights, refuse to step out of the car, on and on; to me, they are in the wrong.

They are causing themselves a trip to jail, in my opinion. Even the police will say to them as they are handcuffing them and putting them in the back of the cop car, “all you had to do was just cooperate.” Most of the time, there is alcohol or drugs involved. This is not a world you will ever find me in.

So now let me talk about what is on my mind and perhaps most people's minds who listen to the news. My first remark is that, even though I’m not a marcher, I do spend a lot of time in prayer about the issues of the world that I feel compelled to address. I try very hard to give over my opinion to the Lord and ask Him to guide my thoughts.

In the matter of the Clancy trial, I’ve had my sleep and daily life invaded by a lot of thought and prayers. I knew before I made any remarks one way or the other, I had to look at this woman, and as hard as it is to forgive someone who has done such an unimaginable, inhumane thing as this, God says that we are to forgive. None of us deserves forgiveness, but all of us can be unconditionally forgiven by God.

According to what I did listen to, there is no argument that Clancy is guilty of killing her three precious children. The WHY is what has been at the top of the deliberations.

It might be cherry-picking on my part, but these things would have convinced me of my verdict.

I think Clancy is very intelligent.

She did her homework.

She withheld important information from those trying to treat her illness.

She threw in hearing “a male voice” with vague instructions. It seemed like a last-minute idea to help her mental condition.

One minute she’s a functioning person making normal choices and decisions with no evidence of what her defense has tried to present as severe psychosis.

She seemed to pick and choose when she wanted to present as having a problem and when she might have been tired of keeping up the front. I think this was absolutely premeditated when the time came. She got her husband out of the house. Lengthened his time away with the phone call to go to CVS.

She knew when and how she was going to kill her children. There was no voice during this time giving her exact instructions.

Her attempts to kill herself were lame. She knew exactly where and how deep to make the cuts; she did neither. All of this was documented and confirmed by professionals.

It could have ended in the bedroom. By the time her husband got back, she would have bled out or been close to it.

Dropping from a second-story window, in my opinion, would not assure death. And it didn’t.

 Her interactions, once she realized that her plan had failed for her: she requested a lawyer. Her concern for her children's safety was secondary. The only reason, in my mind, that she even asked about them was: if her entire plan failed, what would she be convicted of going forward?

I’m sorry, but when I look at her, I see a very smart, manipulative individual. I think she took in a lot of people. If she was so tired of life and supposed to have loved her children so much, why didn’t she just take her own life? In Clancy’s case, what differs from other women who killed their children is that there were many voices either convincing them of demon possession that needed cleansing or some other constant verbal agitation. Clancy’s voice was one and done.

The needed assurance of timing, found by googling and calling to confirm the time she would need, is absolutely premeditated.

The main thing in my mind as I see her sitting in that wheelchair is the one thing she didn’t plan on. Forgive me, I’m not usually a suspicious person, but somewhere in me, I think that one day there will be a news report about feelings miraculously returning to her legs.

My summary:

I won't be marching in a pink shirt cheering for this woman who brutally killed her precious children. So, I asked myself, trying to put myself in that basement, asking this question: “How could a mother squeeze the life out of her little children while watching them fight for their lives until they stopped? There had to be some level of momentary insanity. To do it not once but three times goes beyond everything that is holy and moral. So, any argument that anyone would present to me that she was this loving mother goes completely away.

Finally, I’ve been called for jury duty but wasn't picked. So, I admit I don’t know the full intensity of serving. But being at the point we are at right now, with a hung jury that didn’t ask to see any of the evidence that might have cleared up what was keeping them from being in total agreement, is “fishy.” I could be wrong, but given the magnitude of this case, is it easier to declare a hung jury and walk away without being the 12 who ended up voting?

Again, this is only my opinion. I completely understand that jurors have to give up their lives for a brief, if not longer, time. This jury went home each night and swore that they didn’t listen to or watch ANY news that would have influenced them. To my knowledge, they are not 12 blind and deaf people. Lastly, I would definitely find her guilty of manslaughter.

One last thing that needs saying. I realize that these 12 people have to go on in their lives. No matter how much has been done to hide their identity, you know it will leak out either nationally or within their neighborhoods. And depending on why they voted, there will be “crazies” who make death threats or harass them.

So, yes, I can completely have compassion on any set of jurors in this day and age because we are living in a different era.

Regardless of all this, I pray that the majority will lay aside the mother’s guilt and her future and prayerfully remember those three sweet lives that were lost. THEY have been overlooked. That to me is the true tragedy.

After all is said and done, and every issue brought to the world’s attention, the bottom line is that we, as a people, have to do better!

I bless you